30 Days Detoxing Digitally: week one

Some know many don’t, I have taken a 30 day detox from main stream social media. I must say these first 7 days have been a bit of a struggle and it’s just now starting to level out. I never knew how much this was needed nor was I aware of the affects it would have on me. Now that I’m starting to get clear minded I question if I’ll ever truly go back. I decided to take a detox from social media 7 days ago. I was feeling overwhelmed, heavy and judgmental of myself. I was losing faith in myself my abilities and my powers. I had begun questioning myself as a speaker and teacher. The messages being shared on my timeline weren’t lifting me they were making me heavier, sinking me into a deep dark hole. I spoke briefly to some about things I was feeling but held a lot back not wanting to be judged, taken the wrong way, looked at side ways or just being plan negative. This was a true spiritual struggle for me. The humor and smiles I once got from all the folks I was connected to became mindless scrolling feeling with no enlightenment, no laughs nothing but more questions. I had fallen victim to the new matrix. A robot just going through the motions and screaming to be seen. My businesses had stopped flowing and my creativity screeched to a halt. Something had to give. After feeling the urge to take a social media break for a long time I surrendered to the message and left. Deleting all apps off my phone. I thought it was just that simple but it wasn’t. What I felt after was just as heavy as what I was feeling before deleting. The first day brought massive thoughts and questions. Second guessing my decision. I know that as an online business I need to post about my website and products. I began wondering if people would still be there when I got back. I felt lost and alone. This alone feeling was different than any other alone I knew and innerstood. I felt like I had abandoned people. My anxiety was through the roof. It took me a little time to shake those thoughts out my mind but, no sooner had they left I felt a dull pounding begin to start. It started as a tapping in the center of my forehead right over my 1st eye. It slow began to increasingly pound making it hard for me to keep my eyes open. I could feel the pounding moving from my frontal lobe to the center of my head. Stretching from ear to ear and increasing in intensity. I tried meditating and everything else I would normally do whenever I felt a headache and none of it worked. By the time the pounding moved to the back of my head I was at the mercy of Motrin. I quickly popped 2 liquid caps and tried to relax. Eventually I drifted off to sleep. I slept uninterrupted for the first time in a long time. However, when I woke up I felt physically out of it. My headache was still there, my neck felt tight and tense, my upper back felt the same, and I had the chills. I immediately checked my temperature 97.1, no fever but it felt like I had the flu. I was miserable. I didn’t know what it was or where it was coming from. I took some Theraflu night time, made some herbal tea, soup, orange juice and plenty water and drift into sleep. This time when I woke up I felt back to normal. As I sat in mediation later that night I heard withdrawals. I didn’t innerstand at first but then it hit me. I was addicted to social media. Social media creates mental stimulation and connections, the symptoms While they were physical they were more mental. Some may not agree but this is my interpretation of what was happening to me. The next couple of days I was trying to figuring out what to do with my hands lol. I began meditating and taking time to do mindfulness exercises. As I did more things to occupy and cleanse my mind my mental clarity has begun to come back. My uploads and downloads are clearer as are my dreams and visions. I am feeling much lighter and more myself. The all seeing eyes of social media and the pressure are no longer there. I’m enjoying life differently. I am more focused on my family, businesses, and really taking care of me. When I wrote my last blog about the new matrix I was speaking from experience however, I didn’t realize how trapped in it I was until I had stepped away for a bit. I honestly don’t know if I want to return to main stream social media to be honest, and if I do I know it won’t be as it was before. I am really enjoying life without it. It is also showing me who and what I am truly connected to. Doing what best for me with no cares or worries of the thoughts and judgement of my internet friends, followers or fans. I will always turn to my sol family in times of needing a little guidance. However, in this week I have lost somethings and people. And guess what … Anything lost in this time is for divine reason and I embrace it. ALL OF IT! We get caught up unbeknownst to us in this like social media because some of these thing have been designed to keep us distracted. The more we keep our heads down scrolling the less likely we are to keep ourselves grounded and connected to what matters. Too much of anything is no good. If you want to know how much time you spend on social media, go to your screen times. I’m not sure about Android but iPhone keeps a daily log of how much screen time you’ve used and where. You’ll probably be surprised at the amount of time you spend online. If you are feeling foggy and weighed down try stepping away from social media and any other thing that connects you to the outside world and go inward. I will be back next week to blog week 2. If you enjoyed this or even just read it give it a like please and comment below with your thoughts. Let build on this topic. As always high vibes and smooth elevation to you all ✌🏽